Tuesday, March 22, 2016

Vivid Colors. The Introduction

I've always been an Artist, maybe not textbook style, but in my own way and artist, and since my younger days I learned fast to see the world in an array of colors, while many see the world for what it is I've always  imagined  to see it in the ways I thought it should be, but even with all of those different colors in my mind, i'm still some how frighten by what could happen.

     That has always been a reoccurring  thought in the back of my mind. A thought that i've tried to ignore since  becoming a college student,switching majors and taking a leap of faith to follow my heart. That was the first time that those colors I saw when I was a child started to fade into a normal black and white designed for the ordinary.

      For the first time in my life the colors in which I saw no longer painted this imaginary world in which I used to live. It was like for most of my younger life I had been lied to. Being an older version of my younger self  I can see how life can be a slap in the face and how those colors in which seemed so vivid as a child can fade, but does it have to be this way?

     Going through life and past near death experiences has taught me that even if you are scared life doesn't wait. We can't stop time even if  we are afraid of it moving forward.  We have to push through the insecurities taught by life to overcome the judgment of an insecure environment.

     The life we live only happens once, and whether we live it being afraid or not is all on us. Blaming past experiences which would have happened anyways just gives us a fake umbrella to hide under. Though  the illusion of a shelter in the mist of the storm is what we would all want one must understand that it has already been given and that now the perils of life can't be avoided so easily.

     As a child we have vivd colors because we are in denial, not because of ignorance but because our faith in ourselves have not been tested. The real soul prevails when all seems lost, but vivd colors still continue to appear. The revival of vivd colors will be my testimony, my journey through the perils of life and how my black and white once again returned into the vivd colors in my memory.


Saturday, March 19, 2016

Jidenna Answered my question

Class ain’t just a glass of champagne. It is more about taste and discretion than it is wearing a 3-piece suit. When we say a man is classy, it is because he carries himself with dignity and integrity. Whether rich or poor, he espouses the elegance of the working man. The pride he takes in his appearance is rooted in the pride he takes in his self and his livelihood. A mechanic can have more class than a banker in a midtown barbershop. A young man can have more class than a senior. It is not capital or age that defines a Classic Man. It is character. 
The Classic Man is a distinguished gentleman. He keeps his gloves dirty but his hands clean.He is absolutely certain that less is more, that actions speak louder than words, and that quality is better than quantity. He avoids making excuses and accepts both praise and criticism with the same cool. He doesn’t like to complain unless it’s funny or interesting. A Classic Man is observant, so he is naturally concerned with the details of his appearance and the presentation of his reputation. Thus, he is sharp in mind, body, and style.
A Classic Man is always an old soul. Nevertheless, he is not confined to tradition. He adapts to the times. Every Classic Man we think of in the past was actually a fresh new face of that era, a symbol and mouthpiece of his generation. Therefore, the archetype of the Classic Man is both timeless and relevant. Although he pays homage to his legacy, he is not merely a retro mannequin. Whether his choice of uniform is a denim jumper or a varsity jacket, he knows how to reinvent the suit for the modern day. His vintage style makes the elders feel young and the young feel grown.
All the Classic Men of the last century stood up straight. When you stand up for something, you stand out. The beauty of a bespoke suit and stiff collar is that it supports a stately posture. A great tailor is like a personal trainer, cutting around your body and into the power of your natural physique. The power of being one’s self is at the heart of every Classic Man’s wardrobe. He is more concerned with the fit than fitting in.
The “Classic Man” record celebrates the neighborhood gentleman that everyone knows and respects. He is the man that steps up to care for that which is not his own. He is the street elegant old-fashioned man, the urban sophisticate. He is a man that every man wants to be and every woman wants to be with. To both his lovers and his enemies, his charm is a necessary evil. Under fire, the Classic Man remains cool as Nat King Cole. He sons immature men without them knowing they’ve just been sonned. He can pull the wool or be a bull while being polite. A Classic Man never rants in public; he delivers speeches with passion and conviction.
The Classic Man believes that there is a deal for everything. Even when he is seemingly cornered, he has more moves than a flamenco dancer. Diplomacy is his strong suit and most conflict can be resolved without violence. He is no stranger to hand-to-hand combat, however, and is an excellent marksman. When all other options are exploited, he is not afraid to roll up his sleeves.
The Classic Man holds women in the highest of regard and will lay down his life to protect them. He believes that great women are the backbone of a successful nation. While others struggle to admit it, he believes that women are generally wiser and more loyal than men. Regardless of sexual orientation, boys and young men struggle with maintaining valuable, platonic relationships with women. Many of us do not have the male role models or father figures that teach us exactly how to relate with the opposite sex let alone a potential mate. Classic Men are usually found in the company of brilliant, successful women.
While other men can’t control their hormones in the presence of beauty, the Classic Man can stare into your eyes and hold an enlightening conversation without making a pass.He feels no need to hunt on the prowl; his patience and wit captures your heart and mind. He takes his mates on adventures, not dates. He knows that texting is not courting and courtship is not a means to an end. Well, on second thought, it is…but the key to wooing is to focus on the present moment. It is extremely challenging to civilize one’s primal desire especially after a few drinks. The more you hold out, however, the more you will be desired and ultimately rewarded. Once you invite him in and ask him to check his coat at the door, he understands that he can finally check some of his manners as well. To quote Enitan Bereola, “Etiquette has no place in the bedroom.” It is usually at this point that you realize that the Classic Man is still a man and that Man is still an animal.

No men allowed, Only BOYS

        Somethings you bring upon yourself, but to truly understand who you do or don't belong with comes through both good and bad experiences. Here are some of my bad ones. Tonight, and old friend wanted to come over. I thought he wanted to chat and re-spark some old memories. As soon as he gets in my door (Not to mention he shows up empty handed) walks over to me after I had sat down to ask for a hug. After I proceeded to show some type of affection towards the situation, I decided to turn on my phone to look at the game to see who was playing and what was going on.

      He then proceeds to ask, "Do you even know who has the ball"? ,Now with  that  being said my blood started to boil, assuming that most women don't know the positions of the team was not only rude but sexiest  and  at the moment I was highly offended that he would make such an assumption. As if that wasn't enough he went as far as saying how he and his friends hate  when women do that and how girls like that basically disgust him.I didn't feel the need nor did I answer the question because I felt like I didn't have to.Shortly after he got mad at my lack of response and from that point on I knew the real reason behind what he had said. I had rejected his hug and kiss and he was upset that this wasn't that type of party. He concluded with how I was dragging it all  out of proportions and left  as swiftly as he had came and I for one  was glad to shut the door behind him, I don't understand.

       Not even two weeks ago my ex boyfriend of two years contacts me through Facebook to say how sorry he is and that he still loves me. The same man who didn't look my way for 2 years now comes to his senses on Facebook on a day I could've cared less about him or his feelings. Not to mention he has a girlfriend who he's been with since he broke up with me. A few days after he confesses his re-found love for me his now girlfriend of the past 2 years messages me on Instagram with the long written paragraph saying how much of a woman I am to dismiss his progresses, and how she has  a newly found "respect" for me all of a sudden.

      A few days after that I start talking to this dude, he only last for about three days, It starts off nice on  day one with the good morning beautiful text and the basic  I want to spend my life with you afternoons.  On day 2 he turns the conversation into a sexting escapade in which he wants to imagine my lips on his penis. After I quickly dismiss those thoughts because "I am not for the male consumption"( Janelle Monae, Erykah Badu .)  he stops the texting by day 3 and runs away quicker than a zebra running from the claws of a hungry lionesses who's only mission is to kill

     Not saying that all men are bad but I have had some pretty stupid boys. I call them stupid, because through all of that if they don't get what they want, usually about sex  to feed their ego, they run. In order to be  with me you must be a man of confidence. you cannot be afraid nor intimated by me. You shouldn't have to bring me down to make yourself feel great . you should have unconditional love for yourself first because if not then you will constantly look for ways to break my spirit  in order for you to feel-superior. Real men should know how to lead with an iron fist but the delivery should be so smooth that i would think that it was my idea i the first place.I shouldn't have to protect my heart from you but i should feel comfortable enough in to which  I trust you enough to take it, Men wouldn't even take the time to bicker with a female because they would know that their place is much higher,  So here the question stands How can you as a boy put me in my place when you haven't grown into yours?  FACTS.